I Set Records

I'm never shocked, astounded, or amazed at anything anymore
except at my own ability to sink
my souls reached depths divers couldn't dream of
and my hopes dried up faster than deceased sand crabs on hot sand
Not much hope for a kid that was thrown into life with lead feet
into an enormous ocean and told to swim
There really does come a point where you can't float anymore or smile for that matter
At least it's lonely at the bottom.
At least it's lonely at the bottom.

Sorry Gram.

At 7 a.m. i was awoken by my grandmother
"JAY I NEED YOUR KEYS"
I've never been a morning person
and especially hate when people interrupt my natural waking up process
So she starts looking for them just to discover a pair of earings on the head of my bed
She picks them up, then down, looks at me and says
"I won't even ask.."

"What's Wrong With Jason"

Do you ever have those days
where it hurts more than usual
to the point where you can't hide it
and everyone around you says "just look at the brightside.."
well some kids don't have one
and "those days"
seem to be everyday lately

It's Been A While

A beautiful, intelligent woman
gave me vegan shepard's pie today
today was a good day

Learn

It's been two years
I still haven't found comfort
I still remember the way your nose fit so well against mine
and how you gave me a reason to love myself
I've never felt whole before you
and I don't think I will again
they've always told me that finding the right person is the most fulfilling thing in this life
But they never told me
how completely empty you become
when they walk out

New England

As i made the snowy one mile walk to my class
I lost feeling in my hands
but the cold around me was not the problem
I felt it much deeper inside
I can't feel the world anymore
Can I even feel at all?