Spring Break

Sitting in the shotgun seat
soley due to age supremacy
I hear them throw at me
"why can't you and doug go to that CVS anymore dude?" as we pass by it
And now i fire back with "why does the atlantic seabreeze keep you soft ross?"
Its almost spring break
its 60 degrees and doug will be home soon
Im listening to a song about a fountain somewhere in Pennsylvania turning on
and for whatever reason i found a deep level of comfort
maybe things aren't so bad
Ross is still chasing niko's mom
and my bass still makes an awesome rattling noise
yeah, life's okay man.

Recall

Warmer words, I couldn't give
better times, I couldn't ask for
I wish I could have told you
things were bound to get lighter
but even if shit stayed the same
we'd push through it together
I know times get tougher
and the world seems bleak
the war would have been bareable
if only you knew..
you weren't marching alone.
you weren't marching alone.
you weren't marching alone.
you weren't marching....

I Set Records

I'm never shocked, astounded, or amazed at anything anymore
except at my own ability to sink
my souls reached depths divers couldn't dream of
and my hopes dried up faster than deceased sand crabs on hot sand
Not much hope for a kid that was thrown into life with lead feet
into an enormous ocean and told to swim
There really does come a point where you can't float anymore or smile for that matter
At least it's lonely at the bottom.
At least it's lonely at the bottom.

Sorry Gram.

At 7 a.m. i was awoken by my grandmother
"JAY I NEED YOUR KEYS"
I've never been a morning person
and especially hate when people interrupt my natural waking up process
So she starts looking for them just to discover a pair of earings on the head of my bed
She picks them up, then down, looks at me and says
"I won't even ask.."

"What's Wrong With Jason"

Do you ever have those days
where it hurts more than usual
to the point where you can't hide it
and everyone around you says "just look at the brightside.."
well some kids don't have one
and "those days"
seem to be everyday lately

It's Been A While

A beautiful, intelligent woman
gave me vegan shepard's pie today
today was a good day

Learn

It's been two years
I still haven't found comfort
I still remember the way your nose fit so well against mine
and how you gave me a reason to love myself
I've never felt whole before you
and I don't think I will again
they've always told me that finding the right person is the most fulfilling thing in this life
But they never told me
how completely empty you become
when they walk out

New England

As i made the snowy one mile walk to my class
I lost feeling in my hands
but the cold around me was not the problem
I felt it much deeper inside
I can't feel the world anymore
Can I even feel at all?

Thoughts during the day.

Somedays I wonder if I even have anything at all. All of my actions in my past and present have never been good enough. I've always tried. But never enough. The amount of effort you put into life has no correlation to finding contentment. How can i measure my worth when I've never been worth any of their time? CB was right. "Don't try"

Porch Visit

If my body had a doorbell
and you rang it
there would be no one inside to answer

I'm sick of television

Who knew the bathroom fan
worked so well to
drown out the noise
from a particular host from fox news
I particularly despise..

first day of class.

It's 9 a.m.
and everyone is talking to strangers
and I
just want to listen to the rain